I will always remember the first time we met. Your first look, your first smile. I remember the day we fell in love. The day you told me you loved me and the day I decided to love you too. Remember the first time you asked me out. Remember when we chat each other every day all day no matter what we're doing. Remember when we stayed up until 3 am just because we were watching movies and cuddling each other. Remember when we were having our petty fights. Remember when we loved each other so much. Remember when we were planning our wedding and thinking about our children's name. Remember when we were happy. Remember when you promised to marry me and never leave me. Remember our first kiss, our first night together. Remember how we long for each other's hug. Remember how you call my name with a smile in your face. Remember when we were eating our favorite food and not worrying if we were getting fat. Remember when we were singing and laughing all day. Remember everything?
You were my favorite person, you were my happy place. But now?
Every time I remember you, every time I see your face, every time I see you smile. I have to pretend to be okay. But I am not.
I can still remember everything. I can still remember your hugs and kisses. How you loved me and how you made me so happy.
I feel empty and tired as hell. I am trying to be okay, believe me. I am trying my best to be okay. But I guess, this isn't really easy. You brought me back to life and then killed me again. I am seeing your photos together. And when I see you with her, I wonder why I wasn't good enough. You were the love of my life, but I was never the love of yours.
I would still like to see you. I would still want to talk to you. And please, always remember that I am still here for you. That I am still the same girl you met a few months ago. That I am still the same girl loving you — I am still loving you.
