As I watched the raindrops slid down the window pane, my mind started to also reminisce every single moment I had with him. Well, this melancholic moment is just a usual part of being an introvert.
If you're a typical young woman at an adulting stage, you would probably say that "this is not the end of the world." You'll just smile and live life like nothing happened. But for an introvert, this is something they will carry, not for the rest of their lives, but for a very long time. Knowing that it is not easy for an introvert to disclose themselves to a person, most especially in a romantic relationship, the time they have spent to trust a person is also the same when it comes to accepting the fact that someone left them. They are not the usual kind of girl that can suddenly change her mindset and turn the page of the book into the next chapter. She's not the girl who will only shrug it off her shoulders and find another man whom she can openly give her heart once more. She's not the girl who can throw everything all at once and enjoy life again.
Introverts are very serious when it comes to love. Although it may vary depending on the situation, but an introvert really dives into a person's soul once they felt that the person is really into them. She will disclose everything about her, knowing that this person will still love her despite her imperfections. She will try her very best to make you feel secured, loved and taken care of, though at times, her being over thinker can somehow make her partner feel it the other way around. She will always put you on top of her priorities, making you feel like you're a part of her dream: someone who deserves to be pursued and exerts efforts to win you. Since an introvert knows what it's like to be alone, she is going to treasure the man who simply loves her for being the person she is and will always try to keep that person for the rest of her life.
Therefore, when someone left them, this would be one of the worst experiences in their lives. It's like abruptly putting an end to one of their greatest sources of happiness; the reason why they smile and the reason why everything makes sense after a very long time of being contented with their life as a strong independent woman. It will change the way she sees the world. At some point, she is going to feel like she's the worst of all the women in the world for her man finds a reason to leave her. She's going to ask herself every day on why it had to happen to her. As she disclosed almost everything about herself on that person, it felt like this painful experience has also taken away a huge part of her, that almost left her picking up her broken pieces and trying to work on what's left of her. She's gonna miss her old self; loving him with everything that she preserved from the beginning: the love, trust, affection, care and everything that she has promised to give just for the person she thought she could spend the rest of her life with.
Now, all she can give are just shattered pieces of her. She's not whole anymore. She has poured everything for the person she loves and still hoping that their love will lead them back to each other's arms. Though it may seem impossible, she's not willing to give up - she's gonna fight for your love as long as she feels the love that she felt from the moment she met you. She's gonna prove people how love can surpass everything - that its power can go beyond what meets the eye. It has the power to make someone forgive, forget and make reconciliations possible. Remember, when an introvert learns how to love, she wants your worlds to become one.
-Eriel Gabriel