I travel to try to heal. Well, it worked in a way but the emptiness was still there and of course, the pain lingered. Then, I acknowledge my feelings, I voice it out, wrote it on a journal. There are even days I used to think that phase wouldn't end. Then somewhere along the way, my heart woke up with clarity. It reminded me of the strong and independent woman I used to be and I know I still am.
Then recently I found myself falling again, blinded by the thought of the "LOVE" thing. It felt brand new and surreal after years of being alone. This time I took the risk of opening up. Dumbfounded, I gave it all for I always believe that if you are to love it should be all or nothing. Till one day the newfound love disappears. Left me with questions and kept me wondering. Hence, I realize that I should let go. I have to move on again. This time around it taught me to be wiser and to be careful. Protect my heart and understand why people do the things they do. To this moment, pain and question still linger but I have to soldier on, be better, not bitter.
So to those who are currently recovering from a heartbreak, take your time! It's different for everyone as healing is not linear, it also does not have a tried and tested formula. You may relapse and go back to square one. Forgive yourself for it. Just never give up and continue to fight each day. Make a conscious decision to always choose yourself each day. I'm sure we will make it!
-Written by Excalibur Phoebe
